January 2012
2 posts
Truth
Even when I lost sight of myself, my thoughts on love were never truly altered. I’ve said “fuck love” out of frustration bc I couldn’t find someone who could understand me and truly appreciate me.
December 2011
3 posts
I Love This
Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty...
My tummy is upset and I just can’t get comfortable. Cuddle partner is fast asleep.. and I’m here wide awake. Ugh, I hate feeling like this. I wanna cry from the frustration.
October 2011
5 posts
“You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you...”
Birthdays used to feel like a day to celebrate your entire life but I no longer envision it that way. I feel like God has given another opportunity for a newer, better beginning. History can’t be rewritten but decisions can be altered for a more spectacular future-history. ♥
Food for Dirty Thoughts
If all animals have relations in doggystyle.. why is it only called “doggy” style?
“They say love starts when you begin to care and when you miss someone for no...”
– ♥
September 2011
6 posts
Confessions of a Heartbreak Part ll
I’ve been trying to sleep the pain away because reality has been so hard to face. But now I’m being haunted in my dreams. It’s all I can think of. I feel so weak for crying. I fucking hate feeling so powerless. He’s the one that used to calm me down and he’s the one causing the pain and he doesn’t even care. How am I supposed to function? Go on living when he became such a big part of my life?
Confessions of a Heartbreak
I’m feeling so unloved. I used to be his rare gem. This feels like I got tossed to the side with the other stones. Everytime he’s upset, he can’t tell me he loves me. Why is it so easy for him to walk out of my life? We just spoke about creating a family, marriage and all of these positive things.. and now we’re in this place in which we’re worlds apart. Why can’t he see how much he means to me?...
Weird haze
I have to learn to turn my ill emotions into positive things. I need to remember that if I’m happy/sad, life goes on. Why bother wasting energy, when time waits for no one? Life was making sense and now being overwhelmed have me in this weird haze.
My biggest pet peeve is people asking the wrong questions. It’s fine if you want to ask me a question but let it be the right one. Don’t ask me questions based off of your own idiotic assumptions. Ask me questions based on factual information.
Train Wreck
Yesterday as I was getting ready to carpe diem, my son began telling me about his dream. He said I fell onto the train tracks, was then hit by a train and crying because I had a booboo on my head. What makes it freaky is that as far as I can remember, he has never told me any of his dreams in such detail. I thought he would drop it but he started up again today. Now, he’s added a...
July 2011
1 post
Dreams of the Perfect Love.
I awoke from a dream this morning, vivid as the sun in HD.
I was fixing my car.. went on the road and got lost. This really sweet man helped me. And we became inseparable. After being together for a short amount of time, he took me to meet his mom. I would sleep over his place. After a year and a half, he asked me to be his wife. My mom wasn’t sure about him. She didn’t want me to be...
June 2011
1 post
April 2011
1 post
30 Day Song Challenge →
veezilla-:biancauseyourtelescope::believeinnarwhals:oholivia:sunshineinajar:
since people were talking about it, I decided to make one up for myself. feel free to join in and use it yourself, some of them are boring/stupid, but it was harder to make than I thought. so yeah
Day 01 -…
March 2011
1 post
Fictational Story Based on a Real Life Story
As Brielle’s anticipation kept continuously building, her days as a pregnant teenager, mommy to be was coming to a close. Brielle’s final appointment was very stressful and slightly disappointing. Although, Brielle was happy to see the baby was healthy and growing, she found out her baby had Fetal Macrosomia, a condition when the fetus is very big. She had two weeks left until her due...
January 2011
8 posts
The Many Faces of Eminem
shanyewest:
when eminem wins an award
when eminem is happy
when eminem is mad
when eminem receives a text message
when eminem hears his songs on the radio
A Dream is a Dream is a Dream...
9/28/10-
Mathew was going to run into her room and I told him not to because she was “Sleeping.” Once the words left my mouth the home attendent said “Oh she’s not sleeping. She’s right here.” When I looked Mama Blanca was on her knees beside the stove, cleaning. Mathew didn’t listen and he ran to the room where I clearly seen her lying in her bed. I...
Bathroom Blues
Why must females be so unladylike? I can’t stand walking into public bathrooms because the things you become witness to are just disturbing. As ladies hygiene and cleanliness are installed, FREE of charge! Why can’t you ever so kindly throw your tissue in the waste basket? I know we’re females and some of our b-ball skills could use some brushing up but REALLY! I can’t...
Honesty Still The Best Policy?
It’s still so amazing to me how people will try to break you down to build themselves up. Yes, I fucked up. I won’t make anymore justifications but not nearly enough to be called out of my name for it. It leads me to ask if honesty is still the best policy? I’m human. I make mistakes. But I make NO apologies for my honesty. I felt you had the right to know. Maybe I read you...
“It’s when I feel loneliest && lost with no direction that I look...”
– Bridget Rodriguez (2011)
Great Way to Start a New Year!
The tension in my house is so thick in the air you could cut it with a knife. This only pisses me off because it’s a new year and a new beginning for me yet others want to come into it with old baggage. Drop the BS! It’s too bad you can’t choose the family you’re born into. The friends you have are the family you actually can choose. I’m so tired of the living...
November 2010
1 post
Things I'm Thankful For..
Here are all the things that I am thankful for this Thanksgiving Twenty10:
I’m thankful for the most adorable little boy in the world. I’ve given him life and he has given me reason to live and a new perspective; I never thought I’d understand. Motherhood has been anything but easy but there’s an immensely, unbreakable bond that I share with no one else but him. When I...
September 2010
3 posts
Cycles
Women are always trying to change an average man on the come up into this wonderful, success story. Shit is annoying to see because I used to be that girl. I’ve learned that you can’t change a man that isn’t willing to change. You have to accept people for who they are not who they have the potential to be. We go after these men that don’t love themselves and set these high...
“Some days I just feel like telling the world to suck my BIG imaginary cock.....”
AIM Status
This was my AIM status last week sometime..
Truly can’t stand when a person can’t be real and say what the fuck they feel or gotta say. Stop being a bitch ass nigga. We’re ALL grown. If I did/said something to make you feel a certain way, let it be known. There’s no hurt feelings over here.
August 2010
5 posts
Lost Soul
I’m a lost soul torn between two different lives: a new one that’s so fucking complicated it makes the old one look like a breeze.. Peaches && cream!
No Censorship Here
Being an adult, I’m able to make my own decisions and I take great pride in doing so. I make mistakes and I’ll be the first to admit it but it doesn’t stop me from living. At the end of the day, I do, say and act as I please. There’s no censorship here! If I offend you, do us both a favor and CTRL + ALT + DEL yourself. I don’t need people in my life trying to play...
“I just wanna see what her sex faces look like.”
–
boyishlesbian0293:
(via beesnewyork)
“I got high for just the opposite effect, something that could push questions of...”
– Barack Obama (via kissesandthugs, lalazombie) (via soulflwr) (via sarahxnoelle) (via alexisbelon)
July 2010
6 posts
My Little Secret ♥
My body misses his more than words could ever begin to depict but my mind longs for him far beyond comprehension. I wish I could speak about him, describe the ways he made me feel those crazy nights that he’d make my insides go into whirlwinds. He’s my little secret. We weren’t supposed to be there and the forbiddance of it all only made it more intriguing. We’ve taken...
Truths Are Crazier Than Lies
Daily Tarot said this: Page of Cups
A youthful boy with the promise of life and love at his feet. A message of love coming to you. Seduction by a younger person possible. Someone trying to charm you. A love of beauty and imagination. Puppy love. Innocence. A young person at the beginning stages of a new relationship. Possible over-excitement in love. New social contacts are possible.
“I been feeling some type of way about her, wanna wife her. Borderline, I...”
“If you have no consideration of my feelings why should I think twice about...”
Pretty Little Liars
Aria: Okay I have never been so embarrassed in my life. I mean first you complain about me being immature and then you act like that in class like I needed to be protected. And everybody knew that there was something weird going on. I mean God! What was that? What? Were you trying to teach me some kind of lesson or something? Because I totally don't need that from you! And you don't know anything about my parents so don't say that they have some kind of arrangement or understanding or something because you don't know them and you don't know me. Okay.
Fritz: Yea, you're right.
Aria: I am?
Fritz: I really don't know anything about you.
June 2010
7 posts
I'm Putting My Foot Down On This One
I’m feeling sooooo anxious. I realize that I’ve let other people’s opinions not only influence but affect decisions I’ve made with my life. I find myself constantly pondering on “what could’ve been” or “what if I had…” and I hate it. I’ve even found myself partially resenting these people. The same people that have been here my...
“I’ve learned that people will forget what you say to them, people will forget...”
– Maya Angelou (via lionofbedstuy) (via sistargirl)
““If your child never thanks you for all that you have done for them it is...”
“I’ma run through that dick like a vandal. Yes, I’m nasty as a...”
Funny Convo w. "E"
"E"
(12: 37:52 PM): Why don't you give me a chance (My Entire Government Here)? Stop giving me the whole sentimental excuse
Bree
(12: 38:11 PM): Chance to fuck me?
"E"
(12: 38:28 PM): Well when you word it like that........no
Bree
(12: 40:15 PM): Why should I place what I deserve on the back burner && delve into my carnal desires?
"E"
(12: 41:19 PM): Because everyone is prone to giving in to animal instincts once in a while. Your no different. Except you choose to indulge with others
Bree
(12: 41:43 PM): Really?
(12: 42:06 PM): I'm choosing to indulge with no one. It's been that way since August of 2009. #LastTimeIHadSex
"E"
(12: 42:38 PM): Oh my word
Bree
(12: 42:57 PM): What?
(12: 43:12 PM): Major self control.. && I'm a horny bucket
"E"
(12: 43:23 PM): That's quite some time. Coming up on a year
Bree
(12: 43:36 PM): Yes, I know. I'm serious about what I want.
"E"
(12: 44:46 PM): I hope you find the right "hustler" for you babe. You deserve it
Bree
(12: 44:58 PM): lmao
(12: 45:33 PM): Word. Even he hasn't gotten it..
(12: 45:36 PM): && mmmm
"E"
(12: 46:12 PM): Oh damn. So I ain't never getting it
Bree
(12: 46:48 PM): Were you being sarcastic?!
(12: 47:05 PM): "... You deserve it"
"E"
(12: 47:28 PM): You do deserve to be with a good guy. No sarcasm there
Bree
(12: 48:46 PM): Ooh ok. Thank you
(12: 49:05 PM): Can I ask.. Why you feel I deserve that?
"E"
(12: 49:30 PM): Cuz your smart and funny and cool and sexy. And you don't care if a guy farts in his sleep
Bree
(12: 50:37 PM): lmao
(12: 50:57 PM): Bodily functions don't disgust me.. until he craps himself and the odors hit my nose.
(12: 51:14 PM): Ooooh oooh && don't gag infront of me.. my gag has a gag reflex. lol
"E"
(12: 51:46 PM): Oh man. That's deep
“Females calling themselves Barbie’s is the lamest thing I’ve ever...”
To Be Continued...
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll make it to Heaven. I know I’m a sinner, surrounded by sinners, living in sin. I most certainly know I need to work on a relationship with God. And get to know all things Holy because I truly am limited to what I know spiritually. Lastly, I know that I need to work on myself from the inside out.
As I sit here and watch “My Sister’s Keeper,”...